ConfuSion: Too mAny Nerve ImpulSes raCing thrOUgh my Head....!!!

"Now I'm thinking, who has a bigger ego, than to market their blog so obnoxiously... than me. No... really... I have nothing to write about... See, im trying this new experiment wherein I write some nonsense, and see what comes out. Im not thinking.... its pretty strange, writing this continous strain of thought im trying to interpret. Come to think of it, I'm having to concentrate pretty hard... wierd this, thinking about nothing, because, see the thing is.. when im trying to focus on what I'm thinking... I'm really not thinking, am I? Having completed that one sentence, Im think im producing some utter nonsense... garbage even... but if I say so myself, it tends to work in some odd way... coherence being beaten into my work... Im just trying to make some sense through it... somehow..."

The minds enless capabilities to come out with collosal amounts of nonsense, is constantly fuelled by this constant state of information overload, as a result of being connected. My take on it: Sometimes it gets so annoying, you want to get away from it all... from the noise they call life. I'm thinking in so many directions, I dont know what i'm thinking. Bottomline: Sometimes I like the volume down... wayyy down. When was the last time your silence was'nt perverted by the sound of someone in a hurry to go to work, or a car speeding by? How many morning have been made gaudy by the still on street lamps? How far is the traffic signal from your house? When was the last time you ever had a walk.... just a walk? When was the last time life was simple?

Today is complicated... there are too many rules... there are too many confines, a lot to learn but little to think. Subject yourself, or stop existing, not much choice be that. But I'm learning to live... I can already handle the not thinking part... I've started to be... just be. Maybe this is just me trying to escape... a subtle attempt at coming to terms with an issue, or maybe Im just tired and need a break... I'm not sure though... its getting all too suspicious to shrug off... I think every once in a while... we all need a dreamless sleep. Helps the brain switch off... Yes... I like listening to the silence... thats me...

Ajwad