Idyut ... im right here .... man ... im so sorry .... been kinda wound up ...
College is goin along pretty ok ... not great ... not bad ... my grades are falling ... n Im not even interested ... somehow being a tech person aint a good idea ... im find myself studying management and marketin subjects... its that bad ... im quite disinterested in what theyre teaching us right now ... Yea ... the curicullum is good ... I guess ... I dont have drive to speak of.
im having a bit of a rough time man ... I dont know ... depression? ... maybe ... but sometimes i think like its too much to handle... trust me ... i dont like being around people sometimes... its like I dont want to hear anyones voice ... not even mine .... Maybe its because I havent gone home for the past one year ... s
eriously man ... stuck in a place like this is the last thing you want to be happening to anyone. Having said that ... its not without its perks ... I've made good friends ... yea and they're good people ... but... sometime it gets a bit too close for comfort.....Dont know ... Im as confused as ever... no chick scene ... im pretty tired of it right now ... Gawd ... whats wrong with me???... I bet you have no clue why or what is wrong with me ... trust me ... niether do I ... Im just really bored with life ... and some how too lazy to study or do anything worthwile ... and its hitting me ... having to go into class and not knowing ANYTHING .... man .. seriously ... such things never happened at ALL... I think I need inspiration ... no ... motivation ... no ... I dont know ... :P; Its one of those problems tha you have the solution for ... but u just too lazy to apply it .... LAZY.... fuck .... I have got to start to do something about it ... I think Laziness is a mental condition .... Do i need to see a shrink??? No clue as hell...
Been listening to a lot of crazy stuff ... I have no idea why Engineering students listen to so much rock ... its like a bond ... Every engineerin student loves metal ... heavy metal ... rock ... [abrasivematerial]+music... it baffles me ... it makes me respect it ... theres culture somewhere in India... There are crazy people around here man ... sitting here, I can point to 20 different people who think differently... its not new ... but now, its showing, and Im not being judgmental...
Now that I think of it, im pretty sure I have no clue how i started off this letter... theres too much going on in my head ... i like the exercise ... but its too tiring for my liking ... I need some peace ... I need a vacation.
Dont worry ... by the time you finally make sense of this ... I'll have written to you again .... tell me ... whattup Wid u ... n I mean a LooNg lEtter....
ciAo
Aj
1 comment:
Interesting post. It was impressively honest for someone of your age. I liked the way it read like a conversation that was just going on in your head. Keep writing. Writing does wonders. I've got about 3-4 years more of experiencing life than you, and all I can say is, it hardly gets any better!!
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